On the Death of a Fish I Hardly Knew

When I lost my goldfish, the shame and sorrow
Of not knowing how to keep a life alive was the worst surprise;
I cried all afternoon, as if I’d died
The grief an anvil in my gut

There are all sorts of ways we eat the fruit, our eyes opened
There are many ways we stoop from lost hope, at the splintered roots of our mortality, which crests over us like a cold sea, unforgiving  

I learned, without words for it, as I sat on the stairs, alone, hoping someone would come to console me
I also hid, as in a garden, behind the trees
The state of my humanity
Please see me, please let me be
We want love, from love we flee

As the sun slanted its long goodbye
The stars were just close enough to touch
And silent
Quiet, as if they could not touch me
With mournful eyes, burning with grief
For a fish 
And, little did I know,
For every living thing